BONDING (SPG)Halu ka PSF, tawagin niyo nalang ako sa pangalang Ella (di ko tunay na pangalan). I’m 21 years old, turning 22 this upcoming February, I’ve been a silent reader for months and this is the first time that I’ll write my confession. Wala kasi ako talagang mapagsabihan and idk but this experience of mine is somehow funny and concerning at the same time (ps: medyo mahaba to). I badly need some advice or tips talaga huhu.So nagkakilala kami ni Cheeks (di niya tunay na pangalan) sa Facebook feature na Date, if di kayo aware sa feature na to, makikita niyo siya sa mismong Facebook App, yung Date yung heart shape na logo na makikita niyo bago yung logo ng notifications. So to make the long story short, triny ko yon and may ilang attempts din and failed relationships bago ko makilala si Cheeks.Cheeks is a very funny/h*rn*/talkative guy. Family Oriented din siya, super bango, and gentleman, and siguro kaya kami nag clique is because of one thing, we’re both h*rn*, lol. So FF, ayon na nga, nag check in kami ni Cheeks and omg talaga as in nawindang ang lola niyo mga mare. Perfect definition ng “small but incredible”, anyways siya mismo nagsabi niyang word na yan HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA. Ang laki mga mare huhu, nawindang ako sa laki as in siguro mga 5.5 inches ata si buddy tas mataba. Just so you know, hindi siya yung first ko, pero siya yung first na malaki talaga yung ano huhu since yung 2 kong ex 3 inches tas yung isa 2 huhu. Blessing na blessing talaga, hindi po ako hipocrite kaya sasabihin kong size does really matter.Grabe mga anteng, nagkanda ngalay-ngalay and duwal ang lola niyo, hanggang kalahati lang ang kinaya ng performance ko HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAA. BUT hindi ayun ang point ko. Ilang beses na kami nag y’know, make love but ni minsan HINDI AKO NAG C** AS IN, FOR REAL. Hindi rin ako na-satisfy sa make love namin and hindi rin ako nas@sar@pan, idk what’s wrong with me.I never mentioned this to him cause I don’t wanna hurt his feelings, don’t get me wrong, I love him and that making love doesn’t matter to me at all, pero may mga times kasi talaga na nacucurious ako kung gaano ba siya k4s@rap huhu kasi hindi ko alam even tho ilang beses na naming ginawa yun. Is there something wrong with me po ba? Or was it because wala manlang kaming intro-intro at ch*kch@kan agad huhu. As in no f*r*pl*ys, gusto niya buk0 juice agad tas pag nil@bas@n na siya diretso make love na agad.Once in a blue moon lang niya madilaan si p*tch@y tapos 10 seconds lang yata tagal ehh hindi naman yun enough para maturn on ako huhu, (mas gusto ko kasi hard hihi). Mabango naman kami ni p*tch@y ko huhu, duhh nagf-feminine wash ako strawberry flavor pa tas ayaw manlang niya tikm@n huhu.So ayun nga, in conclusion, hindi ko ma enjoy yung make l0ve thingy na yan. Should I open this up to him or nah? And please give me some tips huhu, btw 4 months na kami together and even tho may mga times na nagtatalo kami or nagkakaroon ng misunderstanding, nafi-fix din naman namin right away.EllaN/A2023